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Of little sleep, many chances, big dreams


Tuesday I will be in Mountain View.  Tomorrow I will be in Frankfurt with good friends and many drunk loud Germans screaming at a big TV. Tonight beyond the witching hour I declined an adventure in Koeln, being the wise or stupid one.  Today I was rocking out with people from 10 to 79 and also teaching a tango dancer to waltz to a band playing surprisingly damn good cover songs.  Also today I unexpectedly toured Bonn for two hours with a beautiful new also-unexpected friend, played piano for an entire wedding in Sankt Augustin, and ate a breakfast of bread, sausage and cheese for the many-hundredth time.

Now I am not clubbing. I am not answering any work e-mail.  I am recharging my phone, my camera, and I am thinking.  And yes, writing.

Writing and thinking about how every new experience, every new friendship brings discovery, along with often joy, wistfulness, confusion… reminders of what was, what will not be, and choices.  Always choices.

Sometimes I envy those with simple lives.  They grow up and die in the same small land.  They marry their high school sweetheart.  They are neither worldly nor stupid.  They don’t have huge dreams to dream or to shatter or to just miss by a teeny tiny what if or an almost or a one-courage-short.  With small dreams come exponentially smaller risks, fewer disappointments, less uncertainty.  And certainly less angst.

I travel a lot.  I see a lot.  I have friends in more countries than I can count on my two hands doubled, and close distant friends in at least one hands-worth.  They’re so far away.  They’re having kids, they’re changing, they’re focusing.

And I… I am still exploring.  Sometimes regretting.  But—in those moments when I let my mind wander in the way that is not wandering to procrastinate or to forget—I am more wondering.  I cannot change what I’ve done and what I’ve become, but will I make better choices tomorrow?  Or, rather, will they be more important choosings of the things that matter, not which coupon site mint gum new web too oh site cool phone app sock alignment?

So here I sit, much loved and alone in yet another hotel room.  And I wonder if they are fast asleep or wondering, too.

 

- Blathered by Adam on Saturday, June 28, 2008 at 21:22 [ Permalink | Trackback ]
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- Commented on by 10 folks so far. Scroll down and see for yourself (and join in the conversation!)


If you’re looking for a nice German song that might go well with this post:
Hannes Wader, Heute hier, morgen dort. Ideally you’d need a guitar for this and sing it yourself, perhaps with a bunch of good old friends (who will, of course, need to part ways the next morning) around a camp fire.

- Posted on Sunday, June 29, 2008 at 2:17 [ Permalink to this comment ]

Time to make some friends in Hyderabad, India. smile
I’ve heard a lot of people get their answers traveling around India. So, here is the marketing pitch smile

Do visit us.

- Posted on Monday, June 30, 2008 at 4:36 [ Permalink to this comment ]

Hey Johannes, thanks for the musical tip grin.

And Sasidhar, I hope to be in Hyderabad in December!

- Posted on Tuesday, July 1, 2008 at 13:16 [ Permalink to this comment ]

I know what you mean as a business traveler myself, i have more friends abroad then I do in my home town but at least i got to see the World.

- Posted on Wednesday, July 9, 2008 at 19:58 [ Permalink to this comment ]

See india not only Hyderabad but the whole india is very beautiful.

- Posted on Thursday, August 28, 2008 at 4:55 [ Permalink to this comment ]

I hate hotel rooms.  They’re so impersonal.  Being alone in a hotel room is really the only place where I truly feel alone.  Jumping on the bed usually helps to dispel that smile.  Unfortunately I couldn’t when I went to Milwaukee for a conference a few weeks ago.  By the time I checked in, my hotel was out of bedrooms.  So they gave me a “parlour room” instead.  I guess traveling businessmen rent these things?  It had a desk, a couch, a bathroom, and ... a Murphy bed!  It was pretty awesome!  But I decided against jumping on the bed for fear that it would snap me into the wall.

- Posted on Saturday, August 30, 2008 at 11:17 [ Permalink to this comment ]

I used to do lot of business travelling.
3 year ago i made decision, no more travelling for work, only travel i do is for fun, it has worked out very well. At some point you have to make decision what you want to do based on your interest.

- Posted on Tuesday, October 28, 2008 at 13:29 [ Permalink to this comment ]

hello, (again… today i’m reading all your blog… finding many a-temporal similarities). I do not agree with you when you say that people that stayis local has smaller dreams. They have many dream, but they have stronger links to their reality, and also the get from these links the ability to postpone dreams. I understand you because i also travelled searching for job opportunities and i missed so much my “local” reality that i’ve chose to leave important and cool jobs to stay with my family, and i will try to grow my dreams here where i am born. I am wondering too, for so many things, it would be cool to travel again… but you know i feel that my place is here, and no matter how it hurts, i know that i have to start my life-building here… maybe like you know that you cannot stop yet.

- Posted on Tuesday, October 28, 2008 at 16:40 [ Permalink to this comment ]

I know what you mean by simple people and thier simple dreams like what movie to watch on Saturday night out. Very nice guy asked me to marry him, but I was free spirited, I didn’t want to stay in one place, I new my future with him. Too simple.  Our souls crave more than just to exist- we want to live.
BTW- I highly recomend you to watch movie “Best of Youth” italian but has English subtites.
It will help to discover the purpose of travel and many other things.

- Posted on Friday, October 31, 2008 at 16:21 [ Permalink to this comment ]

Hey everyone, thanks for the ideas and the sympathy and the stories grin.

I’m actually traveling less for work… not “none”... just less, which is great grin.

And thankfully, on some of my recent travels, I found ways of being less lonely in the hotel… gtalking with friends online, going to swing dances, and so on.  So it’s all good grin

- Posted on Sunday, May 24, 2009 at 14:48 [ Permalink to this comment ]

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